I always cry.....

I'm just one of those people who cry easy. I cry when I'm sad, when I'm happy, when I'm scared, or nervous, or excited. I cry at stupid things like movies, books, commercials and school events with my kids. I can cry when I hear a certain hymn or song. I cry when looking at pictures and watching videos. It's not always a bad cry, sometimes I can smile while I cry, but I'm just an easy crier.

I cried this weekend!

My son was in his school play. I told my son freshman year that he should get involved in stage crew. He did but didn't give it 100%. Then Sophomore year he decided that he was going to give it another shot, and fell in love with the theater and the behind the scenes. His goal is to get named Stage Crew Director for his senior year. He got 2 awards last year and was most impressed with the one given to him by the Stage Crew Manager. The other one was for something academic, he was okay with that but more impressed with the Stage Crew one. He was asked to step into a minor role during the spring musical because a kid was on academic probation. He did and he loved it. That's when he decided that as soon as the Fall Show auditions came around, he was going for it.

And he did, shaking like a leaf, he went for it!He landed one of the lead roles in the show called The Rules of Comedy. It's a comedy about applying the rules of comedy to a very serious play, Hamlet, the last scene to be exact. Hamlet is deep and dark, not funny. But they applied these rules and it was a funny show! And my son was on stage for the entire show, with a huge spot light on him, with a lot of lines.

And I cried. But that's okay, cause it was a good cry!

I don't ask for much......

really I don't.

I just ask for a few little things in life.

I ask for Target to have my shampoo and hair color in stock. Why they need 40 boxes of Ms. Clairol #255 Deep Deep Dark BLACK and only 2 of the blond that evidently every woman in Philadelphia uses, is beyond me. Would it kill them to over order that color just one month so I don't have to go to 3 other stores to find it?????

I just ask that they have grape juice. Not Blueberry Pomegranate Cran Grape. Just Grape. It's Tuesday and there is no Grape on the shelf. Who the heck does the ordering for these stores????

I do ask that if you are going to make a left turn onto another street, signal a little bit before the turn and then scooch over to the left a little so those of us going straight can pass you. I know it's hard to hold the phone AND put the signal on. I mean God only gave us 2 hands and one of them must be on the cell phone at all times! But just give it a shot, just one time and see how smooth your turn goes.

I ask that teachers just get the kids out of the school so they can go home. I know it's very important for them to be silent while in a line but for the love of everything holy, let them talk and get rid of them faster. Stopping every few steps to tell them to be quiet isn't working. Aren't you dying to get rid of them?? You've been with them for 6 hours now. Send them home to their parents, who by the way, are sitting in the car with 50 other things to do and places to go.

I ask that if you are going to send me a notice that my book is in at the library, that you send the notice BEFORE the library closes. See sending it at 11PM doesn't do me a lick of good. I can't get it then and have to wait for the next day. That's annoying because I've been waiting patiently. By 3:30 the next day, I am busy and have completely forgotten that you sent me an email about 12 hours ago to come and get it.

And those were just today!

They tell me.........

that in a few years, more like 10, I will miss all this.

I will miss all the running around that I have to do on a daily basis. I know they're right, I will miss being busy when they get older and don't "need" me anymore.

I think back and remember when I was a tween and a teen. If we couldn't walk to it or get there by bus, we probably just didn't go. I don't remember asking my mother to drive me to places. I'm pretty sure we just got ourselves there. I don't remember her driving us to the dance or sitting in her car while reading a book just waiting for me to come out. I just think things were so different and it didn't work that way back in the 70s and 80s.

This weekend I drove my one son and his friend over to a mall in New Jersey to buy a t shirt at Hot Topic. It had to be that specific Hot Topic because on Thursday of this week, they are having this band there. So if you go over and buy a t shirt, you get the arm band which allows you in to see the band. I have no idea of the name of the band even though he told me several times. I try to remember, it just seems to get lost by more important things like where I left my car keys or what day of the week it is.

I'll admit, I love doing all these things. I want to be that mom. I want my kids to look back and say my mom always was there to take us here and there, or my mom always let us have our friends over. I want to be the mom that makes the pizza rolls, lets 10 kids lay all over the living room floor watching a movie and bakes 2 dozen cupcakes cause it's one of the girls birthday.

I just wish the government would send me a nice check every week for being that mom! It would be so much more fun to be that mom if I didn't have to work every day.

So this week I have one son with play rehearsal every night because the big show is this weekend, I have another one with the All Star Soccer game and a band he just has to see, and a daughter with an art class and a new engineering club. Throw in 3 shows of the play this weekend, the school dance that I run, which includes finding some time to do the shopping for that dance some time during the week, a few trips to the grocery store and Target, and with a little luck, some time to stop in the hairdresser to beg her to cut my hair and wax my eyebrows. And let's not forget, a little alone time with Ms. Clairol because teaching the oldest to drive is just ruining my perfectly natural blond!

I think "they" are right though! I'm going to miss this.

Until then I guess it's dark circles and uneven gray hair!

So, back to blogging.....

I have journals like this in my room too. I start, I stop, I start again. It's the story of my life. Never feels like you are getting anything done and yet when you sit down to write, you could go on for hours!

So, I'm giving it yet another shot on another Monday.

A horrible thing happened in the VB kingdom this weekend. All the little princes and princess are not happy. The computer has a virus and needs to be seen by someone who knows what they are doing. It might be time for a professional, or a sister in law who thinks she's a professional!

The kids are going through withdraw. I offered to take the oldest to work with me for an hour so he could come here and bring his laptop to get things done for school and then I could print it out if he needed. He said he didn't need to do that. The husband got home and got it at least to the point where you can go online on the main computer but not on the laptop. And we're not sure how long that's going to last since there's a virus and it just keeps screwing things up. Wouldn't it be nice if my computer being down was as urgent to my sister in law as it is to the kids? LOL She actually has the audacity to put work and her family first. Believe me, I'm making note of this when it comes time for Christmas presents. LOL

More big news in the kingdom! The oldest son is in the school play this weekend! He's a nervous wreck. I'm saying a novena and hoping he doesn't get sick this week from being so run down between the rehearsals, the meeting and just regular school work. I'm so excited for him though. I can't wait for the weekend!

And a little sad news in the kingdom. My other son was in the playoffs with his soccer team. First time in a long time that they made the playoffs. But they lost on Saturday night so technically they are the 3rd place team. No shame in that considering the teams that they had to beat. The coach actually has a complaint in to the Commissioner because they've played this team before and some of these kids weren't on the original roster and didn't even have uniforms on, unless all of a sudden we play against the Philadelphia Phillies in CYO soccer. Not that it's going to do anything because the championship was Sunday so I'm sure it's too late to do anything. All in all Greg had a great season and played so well! He made the All Star Team so he has his last game on Wednesday night. Kind of bitter sweet because I don't think he's going to play soccer when he gets into High School next year.

I can't believe I'm saying this but.....I'm going to miss soccer games with him.

UGH! I hate the fact that they are growing up and I have no say in it whatsoever!

It's a comin........

the weekend is within my grasp!

Got a really busy one coming up too and I can't wait.

I have to go to the high school on Friday and set up for the Moms Association Craft Fair that is on Sunday. I love the craft fair! After that I have to pick up my oldest and take him shopping for a new shirt. He's going to a school dance with some friends and his new "interest" asked him to meet her there and then after the dance go to Nifty Fifties for ice cream! He's on Cloud 9!

He deserves this so bad too. He had a really rough summer with a guy that he thought was his best friend and now they don't even look at each other anymore. Now he's telling me things that happened and it's really hard for me not to want to make a hood ornament out this kid. But I'm being good!

The other son is going to the movies and then having friends over. The daughter has art and then a soccer game. This means that two parents must figure a way to divide and conquer the parental duties of being chauffeurs and chaperons. Might need to break out the cape and boots for this one! And a list of who needs to be where when and by what means. Which most of the time means we are driving. Wouldn't dare want any of the other parents to break a sweat on the weekend for crying out loud.......but that's a different gripe and I'm not griping today!

Saturday is finishing up anything that didn't get done on Friday with the Craft Fair and then 4:30 mass since Jerry has to lecture at that mass. Might even be able to squeeze in dinner with the hubby if all goes well. Since he works 2-10:30P, he doesn't get to have a nice home cooked meal with company so we're going to try and make that happen on Saturday. Wish me luck!

Then at the break of dawn, Sunday is Craft Fair day! I love the Craft Fair!! I get my personalized ornament from there every year. And there is this wood crafter that makes the most adorable Christmas decorations and I'm getting a new one this year. Oh and he makes these sports team signs that you put in your lawn and I am sooooo getting my Flyers one this year. I didn't get one last year since money was tight so this year, I'm getting presents! I've been a very good girl and I deserve a little something! It's the little things, what can I say.

I have to squeeze a trip to B&N into the weekend too. My daughter wants a book that the library doesn't have and she has to read something for school so I told her I'd get her book for her. Yeah, twist my arm baby and make me go to B&N. I'm a good mother and I will do what I have to do for the good of my child's reading habits and school projects! Go me!

Then when the Craft Fair is over and the clean up is done, I get to go to my son's soccer game and relax while I sit in the cool, crisp, Fall air and just enjoy myself. And the best part is that I do not have to go to work on Sunday night, personal day for me!

I am just going to skip out of work in the morning!!

Counting my Blessings!

Have a good weekend!




Current Read: A Secret Kept by Tatiana De Rosnay

Do you wanna funk with me?

I guess that's what this is....a funk.

Not a bad funk, just a bored funk.

So many good things are going on in the crazy kingdom, I should just not be in a funk.

But I am.

I'm not in a bad mood, I'm in a good one actually. I'm just so bored. The kicker is that I'm so damn busy I don't even know how I have time to be bored but I am. I'm in a rut and need to do something different. I'm tired of doing the same things every day. I need to shake it up a little.

I wanna get out and play, not do the things that I have to do. I have to go to soccer games, I have to go to school functions and I have to run the craft fair. I have to go grocery shopping, do the wash, find the winter school uniforms and wash them, run to B&N, take the oldest out for a suit, hem some school pants, clean up that pile at the bottom of my bed, pack up that one drawer into a box, clean up a ton of crap in every nook and cranny you can find and even with all that....I'm bored and want to do something different.

I really want to get in the truck with my camera and go have some fun. I need to put that on my list.

I'm really lacking patience and discipline this week too. I just need to get things done and in between, a little me time. I think I'll make that a priority this weekend. I need me time. Bad, real bad. Now I just need to figure out how I'm gonna do that!

I'm going in.....wish me luck!

Stop the world.....

I wanna get off!

UGH! I can not believe that it's August 30th. I can not believe that the summer is down to 7 days. Where did it go??????

I'm absolutely terrified of this school year. I know that sounds weird but I have 3 reasons.

1. My oldest son is going to be a Junior in high school. That means we need to start thinking about college. He has a roster this year that scares the crap out of me. I know he can do it but I know how much pressure he puts on himself too. I'm scared!

2. My other son is going into 8th grade. That means this is it. His last year in the easy going relaxed friend filled grade school. I remember clearly when he was starting preschool and I asked him if he was excited and he said no, I'll just stay home with you so you don't miss me.

3. My daughter will be starting 7th grade. That's huge for a girl. Big changes are coming up for her both physically and mentally. And that really scares me. Even her uniform for school is changing. She's going to the "older" girls uniform of a skirt and blouse. She tried on her new skirt and then proceeded to show me how to "roll" it up so it gets shorter. That scared me even more!

I need a time machine! I need to go back, I need the world to stop, or at least slow down.

I need a valium and a glass of wine!

I need a do over!

I got a lot done this summer that I wanted to but I didn't do any where near enough! I think I figured it out. Work. Work got in the way of me having a life. Life was so much more relaxed and enjoyable when I didn't work. That's it, it's all work's fault!

Since I can't quit work, I guess I better make the best out of this last week.

Here's to this week.......