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Thursday, June 18, 2009

Change.....

I thought I needed a new look for summer! I kind of like this one, a little girly but that's okay for now! As long as it's purple I'm good.

Normally, I'm horrible with change. New beginnings scare me and endings terrify me. I'm starting to realize that this really is a problem for me so I have to work through some changes, get a grip on things and make myself relax and work it out. I'd even go so far as to say I have anxiety about change. I think it's getting worse as I get older. Or maybe it's not so much as I get older, but as my kids get older. They are the ones changing, going through most of the changes and I'm the one having the anxiety about it. All part of motherhood I guess. So I figure if I get a grip, grab it by the horns and hold on for dear life, I might just be okay with some change here and there. Maybe.

Instead of focusing on the changes, I'm going to focus and put my energy into other things. Control what I can, while I can. Maybe even sit back and enjoy a few things. Wish me luck with that!

So to help kick off my big change with change, I think I'm going to give myself some time this weekend. I really want to get out and play with my new camera some. I really want to curl up on the deck on my favorite lounger and read while sipping a big glass of sweet tea (thanks for the idea Cyndy) with my tiki lights going. I want to play a few rounds of Apples to Apples & Uno Attack with the kids. I want to stay up late and talk! I want to take a little time and just enjoy the start of summer.

And while I'm doing that, I'll just keep saying over and over

Oh God, give me the Serenity to accept the things that cannot be changed, the Courage to change the things that can and the Wisdom to know the difference.

Maybe that'll do the trick!

3 comments:

  1. LOVE your new look :o)

    You have the best attitude towards all the changes...acknowledge, accept and move forward!

    Enjoy your weekend. I'm sure your kids will, too.

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  2. Love the changes and your attitude too Lori. I need to say that little prayer today too.

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  3. Love the new look! I wouldn't mind coming over to play Apples to Apples and enjoying some sweet tea ;)

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